Of pancakes and the sunset

It is said, "Life is measured not by the number of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away". I've come across this, time and again but I never really tried to understand the hidden meaning. During a recent trip to gokarna, it came to me. I've had some amazing times in my life, met amazing people, been to amazing places but I do not have pictures that will remind me of these times if and when I forget them. But then, another thing is that when you're having fun, you're too busy to have fun than take pictures of it! Like the gokarna trip was probably the most relaxing trip I've ever been on. I don't have pictures of the most fun times on the trip, because obviously, we were too busy having fun! :P I want this to be a memory for me, of one of the most amazing times in my life. It was about being with people I love, the beach, the sea, the food and the talks. That's all that it was about. It was about talking for hours and hours about nothing in particular, knowing that life will never be the same again, that we will never be here, like this, ever again. It was about hogging like pigs. And man, the way we ate. It was about appreciating the beauty of the place. No hurries. It's about the four hours we spent at skylark cafe. Its about the bed bugs that bit is really hard. Haha. It was about the waves crashing on us. It was about "seducing" the food. Hahaha. It was about the nutella pancakes. It was about the sunrise and the sunset. It was about the full moon. It was about discussions that ranged from mythology to technology to friendships to horrifying truths. It was about the new card games we learned and played. It was about revelations and secrets. It was about the train journey back to Manipal. It was about sitting at the door of the general compartment, talking to your best friend about anything and everything in the world. It was about changes and new beginnings. It was about the love between all of us. It was about us. It was when we just let ourselves be. It was about when words were not important to convey what we were feeling. It was about spending time with all of you.
I love you all. You know it. Even though I know there is a very very slim chance any one of you will ever read it, I still want this to be there. So that in life, if I ever want to revisit this trip, I know where to go. It's more for me, than you, I know. But what to do, life moves on and places change, but hearts stay where they were. Always.

Memories *Sniff*

Okay. I don't know where this sudden urge to blog more is coming from, but it's been there for quite a while now. Well since it's there, i decided to do justice to it ;P. Anyway yesterday i was introduced to a song that has left me reminiscing about the last two years. I did exactly what he said, closed my eyes, turned up the volume and imagined myself at KC.

So many memories came rushing back. It was overwhelming.
It's five thirty in the morning, we're all at kc, playing basket ball. Np, ansh, chandu,dipika,neeti,shir and me. The sun rising in the background. Fast forward a couple more days, standing in front of campus stores,laughing our asses off for some reason. Inside the block, shouting and running through the corridoors just to scare neetika. Hah. What fun! Fp..*our place* ..Innumerable walks and talks with nik...Wishing them back..Goa. The drive to arambol with the wind in our hair. Goa the second time. Sleeping in the general compartment near the door. Diwali. Being around people I love so much. My room. Chand, ansh and me sitting on my bed and laughing and bitching and laughing again. Ansh and riche nights. Shir. Sitting in neeti's room. The drunk girls night. Hilarious and too much at the same time. Divya. Being all cute and caring. All the time. Prachi and ankit. Together. Venugopal. Praying with nik. Nik. Just being with nik. Soup times. Hunger pangs. PMSing. Taking it out on your best friends. Siddharth. Reading in his room. Naera- ever smiling and just dropping in for a chat. Walking back from college talking to vipul. Hospital. Twenty-20 world cup final. Dinners with ansh and chand. The backchodi we did in the library. Being crazy after songs (not unlike right now,but still). Omg. More talks with chand and ansh. Chandu's room. Anshi's room. Nik's room. Places I've lived. Literally. Sid's place. Innumerable parties at Blue's. And the last thing I remember is all of us, the first time we went to end point..walking into the sunset...


There are so many more memories...so so many more...they came to me too...but in repetitions of the song...everything was so crystal clear..suddenly I felt like all of you were here with me. Gave me some sort of inner peace that i was looking for. Calmed me down and then made me ache for you all more. All the more. Cause I knew those times would never come back. NEVER. Things will never be the same again. NEVER. That hurt. That hurt so bad.
But I know, this was the end of a phase in a very long journey..one that will hopefully last all our lives..

'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine...